Wednesday, 23 September 2015

It's been a long time

I had a draft, actually several drafts saved.  But they became less and less relevant.  And now here we are - 18 months later.

18 months.
1 marriage (my brother's)
1 baby (also my brother's) - I am now a proud aunt - and they were right, it's different when it's your brother's baby.  He's the cutest, sweetest baby ever.
1 new job.
A new pair of boots (they're gorgeous and I can't wait for it to get a little cooler so I can wear them!).
A new outlook.  I told my friend, it feels like the universe is shifting.  Finally.

I was in a rut.  Unsure how to dig myself out.  Then an opportunity presented itself.  And I rose to the challenge.  Still rising, I think.  I'm daring to dream.  I think I'd forgotten what I was capable of.  Out of the shadow of my old mentor - whom I loved dearly.  I work for someone who appreciates what I bring to the table, who listens to my perspective and asks for my opinion.  It's not that I didn't have that before.  It's that there wasn't enough for me to feel challenged.  And maybe at the time it was what I needed.  But the universe has shifted.  And I feel good.  Feeling good inside has slowly made me feel good outside.  Daring to dream of possibilities.

You know the image - the one with the sun shining through a break in the clouds?  That's how I feel now.  Except I never knew that the clouds were so dark.  None of this may be coherent but that's OK.  I feel light in my heart and I am thankful.